I really couldn't think of anything specific to write about today, I just felt that I wanted to write something. I've never lost anybody REALLY close to me before, so I had no idea how this was going to affect me, I couldn't even guess how I'd react. I miss him more than I've ever thought possible, sometimes when I think about him not being here I feel pain and sorrow that I never thought could be felt. It's really strange to have those feelings. It's frightening to be feeling them and knowing that you have to go on, almost have to "let it go." But I will never let him go. I will remember the good and the bad forever. He was part of me. Hence a part of me is gone. Yet, part of him stays with me; I will strive to be like him, he will always be remembered because I will try to make it impossible for people to forget! Still miss you Dad! Love you.